making sense

8:44 in the evening, Singapore time. I am trying to be as much as unbiased as possible. I am trying to figure out things, look into it, see through it and live with it. I am not feeling elated about anything at all at this point.And I don't think I am making sense either.

Things have been tough these days. Rejected passes left and right and it leaves me thinking, what awaits me here. My heart is breaking, my mind is racing with thoughts and my body is tired..I'm looking for caring eyes, thoughtful lips that would encourage me to keep moving, keep going and never give up. I am searching for some desperate help from someone who feels what I am feeling. This feels really terrible...and then I look up.

All along I know I have been running to and fro, not knowing where I am supposed to go..I have no idea what's in store for me..My faith is shaking, I need some serious attention. God, I need you now more than ever..Please come to my rescue.See me through tonight, lord. Surround me with your peace and fill me with your love. Let me feel you , come and draw close to me..I feel so alone lord. I feel so insecure,but I know You are my security,my sure foundation, my portion in the land of the living. You are all alone I need tonight.

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I know things don't make sense at this moment in my life but YOU DO lord..You alone are the real thing in my life..You and you alone.I love you. I may not also be making sense, but as long as YOU ARE in my life, I am okay.